I read this chapter several times over. Church always talks about agape love in sermons and sunday school but never understood it. I guess I was not receptive until this trial happened. If a marriage is not based on agape love then the relationship is unstable. It does explain our downfall. My love for my wife was very much based on phileo and eros. I could list her 18 qualities (from that positive list in Day 7) that drew me to ultimately marry her but that's not the point. I choose to love. I love her, period.
I'll be driving out of my way tonight to get her favorite strawberry meringue dessert tonight (she loves sweets). This is for sheer joy of being her partner in marriage.
Make sure you don't eat it on the way home, or buy a couple LOL.....
I actually ended up buying two because I wanted mom to try it too, but by the time I got back to parents place at night the cake had melted :(
I have something else to share. I was going to write a lot to vent here but I decided not to. I found more evidence of affairs. I cried and screamed like mad while driving and asked God to take away my pain.
Focus is on God now. I'm fasting and praying as she also has her counseling session today.
On my knees - humble, asking Spirit to reveal any unconfessed sin in my life, examining my motives, giving thanks, trusting Him with me and trusting Him with her, giving Him my worries and anxiety....
James
Sorry to hear about the findings. However, there is a plan. Just remember that. When I was in my situation, things were happening and I could not believe there was a plan that could be worth what was happening. BOY WAS I WRONG> I think back now, and it could have not happened any other way.
Here is the thing. You are learning the true meaning and blessings of Love. You need to accept them during this journey. And when you are ready, when Christ has molded you to where he wants you, then you are going to experience love like you never have dreamed.