So this is my 2nd time starting at day1, got as for as day 5 last time,but my mind and heart where still on "it's about me mood" and I had to go back and reflect on why I was feeling how I was , and it came to me,, after much Prayer and crying, and leaning on Christ, that even thought I was the only one Doing anything to fix our marriage,, I had been expecting him to want to do the same for me, think of me,want me, show me kindness.
Expectations,,,, are hardm and need to be stopped asap!
Today being my real 1st day--just doing because I love him,pray for him and to just do ,be free to care and love, without wanting anything in return,no expectations for the DAY, just working on today,, was ........good, and went good, we even laughed alot with each other today. wow! when you do it open and with Christ ALL things can work together for good. thank you Jesus for today,thank you ,
Look at it this time as a journey between you and Christ. Not you and your husband.
You are going to allow Christ to mold you in this journey, and Love Christ first, so that you now can learn to love your husband better!
I am on Day 18, and this is my third try. I started 2 years ago, and on the first day my husband sent me a text message that said DIVORCE. I was so hurt, I didn't go any further. We worked on things, it got good, then it got back to bad. So a year ago, i started, but I wasn't really committed and stopped, after the wanted a divorce again! Anyway, we went to about this time last year, and it got good, but for the last few months he's been distant. I started once again, but this time with my full heart. At Day 16 (two days ago) he once again said to leave him alone, he doesn't care and we don't work.
The doesn't care is the hardest to hear. But I have decided to keep going, because I see in me changes, and I love him even though he doesn't love me. I am putting my trust in The Lord, and will follow my heart. If we stay together that will be wonderful, if not, I know that He has something else planned for me.
I appreciate this area to just let me write this out. I have no close friends, no family near to me.
After doing this 3 times. You are missing some very big things. First. DO NOT follow your heart. The heart will deceive you...
Take some time and read the entire appendix. Especially the section on leading your heart.
And you must do this journey that it is one between you and Christ, not you and your husband. He will just be a tool that is used to allow Christ to mold you.
I am sure you will find a much different out come.
And come here daily there are many to support you.