That is conviction... You must confess to Christ these concerns, and make them right with Him.
Then trust Christ that His blessings will abound in this situation.
Conviction for me or my husband? I prayed about it yesterday. I didnt write anything vicious in the notes.. I was being a silly immature kid when I drew the faces on the photos.
Conviction for you
Hi Sean, I took your comments to my christian counsellor. Why do you say that I am being convicted? Those were things that took place in the past. Its not something that I have been continuously doing? it was over 20 years ago.
I still havent found the pages of my book and I been trying to complete another dare. One of them fell through last weekend and on Monday night my husband came bursting through the door of our home. He needed a place to stay for the night. It was stormy night and his car broke down. I didnt have much of a choice and I made him a cp of tea and gave him clean linen and towels. He was thankful at first and while he was showering the FERRET was ringing his cell phone constantly. When my husband got out of the shower and changed into his bed clothes.He started to behave like he was entitled to do what he pleases and he is going to have it his way.. he tried to close the door on my when i gave him the tea. I told him that I am not sure wht he is planning on doing but whatever it is please dont bring it hear. The ferret kept calling and he turned off the phone. He talked to me about his sister and her situation with her husband. He really started in on how poorly his brother inlaw treats his sister and how other family members interfered with the marriage. His brother in law is doing and behaving extactly the same way as him. I looked at him and then he went completely quiet and went to bed. I went to turn off the tv and his eyes opened and stared at me and said nothing. I think that the feret called back and he must have talked to her from under the bed covers. he told me that when I awake in the morning he will be gone because he had a very early morning pick up. I prepared breakfast and lunch snacks and left it for him.
I woke up at 4am and he was already gone. I called his phone and he picked up. He said he took a cab to where his truck was and he was leaving out.
He didnt say thank you. He was in a hurry. he had his phone switched off for a few days. I am not sure what is happening there.
I been praying and asking the Holy spirit to reveal himself to me and that he will make a way for me.. even though right now I dont know how.
The conviction is from you worrying about him taking the pages to show his sisters. There is still untrust there... And those feelings are something that Christ is trying to show you. .. YOu need to pray about it, for the wisdom to understand. it could be as simple as to show you or remind you that if you do not like someone at some point be careful of what you do because one day that may all change.... And now that you are friends again with the sisters this bad thing may come back...
I wanted to write sooner but I was having difficulty signing on to the site. I have read your comments and I have prayed about this. I know there is nothing much I can do about it at this time. At times, I want to believe my husband and other times I dont. I havent been able to do any dares. Once again it is a slow process. I havent spoken to my husband in two weeks. Since the day he barged in and ran back out. I didnt have any desire to speak to him. My christian counsellor suggested that I pray and ask God about possible dares that I can creatively come up with. I have on going dare of clearing out garbage and junk from our home. I also washed and folded all the clothes that he left behind. I was becoming frustrated and angry all over again because this month will make 2 years since everything fell apart. I give thanks that I am still hear and I am still chipping away ... The Love Dare came on local tv here the past two weekends. I watched it by myself and with my dad. I spent the weekend in prayer but I am still feeling frustrated.
I sometmes dont have it in me to pray for this man . HEL P ME PLEASE!!!
I sometmes dont have it in me to pray for this man . HEL P ME PLEASE!!! I need to get out of this RUT!!!
Dont trust him... That is part of your problem. You are still looking for him for comfort. Seek Christ for trust and comfort. Want to get out of the rut then seek Christ and pray for His comfort always. He will give it to you. Seek out of each day what Christ is trying to do in your life. Become an expert at listening to Him. Build your relationship with Christ first, everything from there will fall into place.
A lot has happened since I wrote on here. My husband was spending time with my father (unknown to me) and said that he called me a few times and left messages. Last Weekend was Thanksgiving in Canada. My husband showed up on Sunday morning . He came through to pick up what he needed and was about to leave again. I wasnt feeling the greatest. We jibbered jabbed a bit and he wanted me to find someone once again to rent the home. I started to talk to him seriously about that and tried to appy fair rules of arguing dare. he said that he has no plans on coming back home. He said that things are NEVER going to work out between us. He noticed that I have changed in my behaviour but its just not going to work. I asked him about selling the house. He hesitated and said that we have a lot of memories here. My husband became very arrogant in the way he speaks and said that he has no reason to feel guilty and he can lay his head down at night. He said that at this point in his life his mind is made up. I tried to witness to him and told him that God has done many wonders in my life. He said that the same has happened to him. God has worked things out for him. He told me not to look at him with pity and not to feel sorry for him. I told him that the choices he has made are based on preferences not principle. He did say that he doesnt doubt that I dont love him and it was great to see me get along with his sister and that his sister extended support towards me. He said that really surprised him but break ups are hard and its not going to work out. I felt extremely defeated at that moment. He kept on saying that he always will remember when i got mad at him and that i put my job first. Then he started talking about his sister and how her marriage crumbled because of the choices her husband made. That was an eye opener because my husband behaves the same way.
He left the house and about 2 hours later, he called back and said that he doesnt like fighting and arguing and seeing me get upset.. I told him that I was having bad dreams the last few nights about people trying to attack us violently. He wanted to know who the people were. It ended up that we had the same dream the same night and we saw the same people in the dream. I told him its the ENEMY trying to get at us and that we should pray together. My back sliden husband doesnt think so. He was very set in his ways.
I have prayed about Gods perfect will in both of our lives. I guess my husband is going to be off doing his own thing for quite some time. It has been two years.
I was having trouble focusing on my dares but today I have come up with a couple. The others that I thought about were just chores that I needed to get done but I think that the dares that I have come up with lately are better.
Someone please respond. At times I feel like I am the only one out here( other than SEAN) writing on this page.
I posted to this yesterday... I do not know what happened to it.
There are only really 2 of us that post to users here. Others that come are in the same boat, so it is difficult for them to post.
If you would like, start writing in the journal section, and more people will reply.
Hi mrsg99, not sure if you still remember me. Yea, like Sean said, I'm in the same boat. I've been prompted to post here today. This is actually a thread I follow periodically. I've been a silent participant but have been praying whenever I read an update. In theory, the act of witnessing shouldn't need to be so explicit. If we're full of the Spirit then it would just be natural. I'm saying this because I sense that perhaps your husband is shying away because he thinks he's being judged by you. I think this happened to me and it was not what Christ wanted me to do. It's not easy I know, neither was Him carrying the cross for all of our sins. Obedience is suffering in a way so we know what Christ did for us. Whatever you're doing now will never go to waste though, as I've learned myself recently. The Love Dare journey is part of me now and I know I am not the same man as before. It does seem like your husband still has a piece of heart on the relationship with you. That can certainly be Christ working on Him. At times I wish I have this luxury of still talking and seeing my wife once in a while, but her heart is heartened. Our divorce is pending but I see God's light and I'm striving towards it with small steps. Well, I don't have to worry about my next meal and where I live tomorrow so for that I'm thankful.
Thanks for your responses. I do appreciate you Sean for reading the posts. I have considered creating a journal in other sections of the site but I havent done so because the computer that I use limits the amount of time I spend on line.
Of course I remember you James! I thank you for writing to me. Your response has shed a lot of light in terms on my behaviour and interactions with my husband. I guess I am expecting him to turn around and be like me in terms of repentence and accepting Christ back into his life. I dont see him as often and when he does come around I am happy but also angry because of his behaviour. Another blogger on the Love Dare site suggested that I read a book entitled "LOVE and RESPECT by Dr. Eggerichs. I just got it and I am on chapter 3. It also opened by eyes in terms of the "RESPECT" by husband says that I am lacking and its probably one of his greatest needs in his life. The Pastor at my church said that he gives each couple that he marries a copy of that book.
I agree with you James in terms of the Love Dare changing my life. I am not the same woman. Many people of noticed that. If I havent chosen this pathway, I am not sure of how I would have been able to cope or handle my current situation. I am not sure if my husband still has a piece of heart on our relationship. By the way he talks and acts, its a done deal. I havent seen or spoken to him since. I tried to call him a few times but that "FERRET' keeps on picking up the phone line. ONly God knows that is happening and what is in my husbands heart and mind.
I will keep you in my prayers James. My brother in law once told me that he knew of a couple who were pending divorce and before the ink was dry they reconciled. I know that no matter what, the Lord would never forsake or leave you James and he would continue to bless and keep you because that is his Promise.
I know its been a while. I just wanted to check in and see how everyone is doing and to let you know that I am still out here and still at it...
Praise God... Hope all is well, and Merry Christmas!
Me too! Still out here, enjoying God's peace and running the race. Praise the Lord indeed! Merry Christmas to everyone!