Just writing with an update. My sister in laws and I have been getting along quite well so I am almost completing my dare. My sister in law told me that she is very happy that we have gotten together... This makes me feel real great because of all of the hurt feelings that have taken place in the past. I just hope it stays there .. in the past. I have not heard or spoken to my husband. I read your last message Sean about deception and the "spookiness" in the household has stopped but I do feel that I am being attacked by the enemy. My dreams have been disturbed. Visions of my husband remarrying the feret and starting another family. I have prayed for peace... I have prayed for the enemy to leave my home...
Christ wants you to depend on Him. To trust Him in all your life.
He will carry you when you cant walk, and He will bless your faith.
Prayer is your biggest weapon right now. Use it always.
I am having a very difficult time . I am beginning to struggle with many things and I cant focus on prayer or anything else for the matter. Hurricane Husband came through the house when I wasnt there and made a mess. I also started to get bad feelings in regards to him again... his lifestyle and choices. I prayed with a partner this morning. At times, I feel that my husband is beyong redemption. My prayer partner told me that as long as my eyes are open. I am livign and breathing . I can always look up to the sky and ask the Lord to help me.
If you cannot focus on prayer, then you are taking control away from Christ. lay the burdens upon Him.
Commit to prayer until you are comforted.
And feeling that your husband is beyond redemption is not a choice you can make, only Christ!
EXTREMELY WIERD FEELINGS
I been getting strong sense of wierdnes from my spouse. I am almost done completing my dares. I've been getting along very well with his sisters and they will be returning back home on 30/08/2011. I invited them for dinner on Saturday coming up. The sister wanted me to ask my husband (her brother) to drive them to my home. I called him to ask and he got very jumpy. He questioned me as to "what sisters" ? I said, how many sisters do you have that are here? He agreed to drive them but he got all wierd. I'm not sure if he was surprised that they were coming over or if he is trying to hide something hoping that they would not tell me anything that I shouldnt know. I started to get creepy feelings.. about the Feret being pregnant. I know that I've said it before .. and the feeling hasnt left me. At times when I get certain feelings.. it happens... I have prayed about this and I am not sure what direction God is taking me at this time... Im not sure if I am headed for more heart ache.
First, walking with Christ... Stop trying to read into things. Even if you are right most of the time it is not of Christ.
You need to focus those concerns into prayer and love Christ for His guidance.
He might be thinking that his sisters and you are going to "gang up" on him about what is going on.
"The most foundational thing to see from the Bible about marriage is that it is God's doing. And the ultimate thing to see from the Bible about marriage is that it is for God's glory." J. Piper.
I spoke to my husband later on that day and he said that he wanted to make sure that he heard me clearly and what I was asking about.
His sisters ganging up on him? LOL I doubt that.. they always defended him no matter what. I had those thoughts and made those comments on my last post because of the way my husband behaves. He acts like he is hiding something and he has not returned back home . He is not budging . He doesnt want to come back home but he doesnt want to sell it. He keeps insisting that I rent and tells me that I am not in the position to move... YET.
I just hope that he doesnt interfere with the evening that I planned
Dont worry about what he does. Chances are it will be Christs plan to open you up to understanding. But you need to be willing to listen to what Christ is showing you.
Saturday was a very lovely evening. Wwe had a nice dinner and great conversations. No hostility or hard feelings. His sisters were very happy and impressed with the meal that I prepared and his older sister told me at the end of the evening that I shouldnt be a stranger to them and that they are there for me no matter what!! That surprised me BIG TIME . She said it right in front of her brother (my husband) . He had a shocked look on his face also. I gave thanks and praise to the Lord for allowing me to reunite with my inlaws and that something positive has been coming out of a negative marriage.
Praise God for that open door. And praise Him for you ability to be a testimony in a hard time.
I am sure the blessings will be many.
I have a question, but i am not sure where or how to post it. But wil this work if we are already divorced? I have already started it and am on Day 3. We do "get along" meaning it's not a volitie relationship. We are actually already very good when we interact (it's always about the kids) never just about us. In short can this still work?
That is a hard question to answer. But in short yes. With God all things are possible.
MISSING DIARY PAGES, MISTRUST and possible SABOTAGE
i cant beleive that summer is over. I hope everyone had a enjoyable and blessed summer and we can look forward to more blessings.
The last time I wrote here I was happy because I was able to complete my dares to an area which is extremely important to my spouse.. his family but I made a very unfortunate discovery a couple of days afterwards.
The open door that was created a few days earlier may close shut very soon. My husband has gone back to the house at least twice while I was not at home. I am not sure if he was looking for something or he came to pick up mail or just to hang out for a while. I had a very old dairy from 1993-98 that I had scribblings and comments of photos that were attached to the pages of the book. I drew a mustache on his sister in one of the photos. I also wrote the desires of my heart for 1998 ( it was after my mothers death). Those PAGES HAVE MYSTERIOUSLY GONE MISSING!!! I seached and searched and have continued to search for them without success. I asked my husband if he went by the house and he said yes . I asked him if he was in the spare room. He said no he didnt go in there. I told him that I couldnt find "book pages and photos". He said he didnt go in there. He told him that when he was at the airport with his sister she told him how grateful she was too me and that she appreciated me. He mentioned that I should go visit her overseas. I believed my husband that he didnt go in the room and see the book pages but I couldnt shake the feeling. I started to think that he took the pages and the photos to possibly show his sister and to let her know that I am a NUTBAR and that I cant be trusted. It also occured that my journey with him is not over yet because I felt that the mending with his family members were a begining to a better relationship and now any hopes that I had are now DONE. I have not spoken to my husband since . I asked him a second time if he saw what I was looking for and he said NO and I should take my time looking around.
I put it to prayer... and I also prayed 1 Colossians vrs 1-14